All posts tagged: fears

When Doctors Told Me Not to Run

  “Never say never, because limits, like fears, are often just an illusion.”― Michael Jordan Even though it was two years ago, I still have tears in my eyes when I think about that 5 km run on a chilly May day in Stockholm. *** The story began many years ago in my mother country, Russia, when my doctor cautioned me to not run or partake in any physical training. For an active kid like me it was quite harsh to accept. Even my parents, for my own good, took away my bike and roller blades! I remember that day clearly, so clear that I still see that bright white medical coat with the name badge reading ”Surgeon Ivanov.” “You will never run”, – I heard again and again. At the age of eleven, I developed a strange disease called phlebeurysm on my right leg. It looked so awful that I wouldn’t wear shorts or skirts for the following nine years, and I constantly wore bandages on my one leg to reduce pain.  At age …

I need a change! I want a change! And I am not afraid of changes! (mantra 2014)

It was 12 o’clock, the New 2014 was coming.  The sound, from opening a bottle of champagne, was muffled with the sounds of fireworks from outside. Magic. I closed my eyes and made it clear to Universe that, “I need a change! I want a change! And I am not afraid of changes!” I remembered about Tony Robbins, one of the my few favorite life coaches and  most popular in the world,  and the video I saw recently where he was talking about the most important human needs/emotions in one of his seminars about depression.  According to him, we all need : Certainty; Uncertainty/Variety; Significance; Love /Connection. The difference between us is inside the question “by how much?” Frankly speaking, I am a person who does not like a variety and changes very much. I have a tremendous need of certainty in some parts of my life. I found that physically difficult just let it go and follow the stream. I got to use to the things quite slowly. I create comfortable zone and enjoy …